unexpressed hidden love

unexpressed hidden passionate love

jan 1st -iwas retunning from tuition

my eyes strikes with a pair of innocent eyes

of a girl............................

........with a beautiful charming face

a strange feeling born in my heart

i dont know whats that...

next day - i was so surprised........

to see her in tuition with us..

two days later.... i was on my way to the school..

i saw her again but im  shocked..

when i saw her in our school uniform.

finally i got that she was new student...

...of my own class but another section.

i was so happy 

i used to see her secretly all the   time through window.

feb 7th 2005-it became my habit to watch her for long time.it became hard for me to stay without looking her .after a long time.... one day .............

my close friend help to me introduce with her.

it was great day for me that i talked with her..

time make us closer.

we were together in tuition and school time.

spend long time together,it return home together

14th feb 2005-valentines day

it was valentine's day.my friends porposed their own some one special.i also wanted to purpose her but.......i couldn't do so, iwas afraid that she would break-up our relationship.one year later.we cleared s.l.c.we were together in college as well.so many time o tried to express my feeling,say that how much i love her,say how much i like her,care and missed her.i want to say her that i couldnt live without her.....

buttttt.............i failed all the time .

sep 2008-i went abroad for further study.we keep in touch with emails & phone calls .

feb 2010-after two years ....two days before the valentine i came back because this year i dont want to miss this valentine . i don't want to loose her .i was going to give her  a red rose

propose her & i will say....I LOVE U ..I LOVE U...

14feb valentines day--i called her in a park .i was prepare whole night how to proposed her..ironed the dress two times...changed the hair style more than four times...checked the whole dresses...polished the shoes... spray the full bottle perfume ...but i through it's too bad& i bath again i saw watch more then fifty times "why the time is running so slow???" finally i reached the park two hours before....four hour passed.....five hour....six hour ....eight hour passed....,,,she didn't came.....i was standing like a stupid fool with a rose in a hand .so many couples looked me & paased away ...i was alone....i tried her mobile it was busy..... at last i dropped  the rose and turn back..SUDDENLY.......

"tring tring tet teet....."[my mobile rang] i receive call.... a strange voice ask for mr " i'm speaking  i replied"he was her father .he said me to come in hospital....immediately i  reached there i found her in emergency room.. A BUS HIT HER...she touch my hand ..i hold her hand..she wanted to say something but....  before she could say anything she leave us...she leave me..once again i became orphan ..i kept that  rose her dead body..which just belong to her...she DIED ..i saw in her other hand i saw a rose and.... a letter wet in her own blood  ...i couldn't stop my tears  i opend the letter .........she wrote...."today through this letter i want to say you that i love u so much i tried alot but i culdnt ...I WAS AFRAID THAT U WOULD BREAK OUR RELATION I AM SORRY IF I HAVE HURT YOU BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH IT'S HARD FOR ME TO LIVE WITH OUT YOU....."my tears continually fall on her letter with non stop..